Slacker

Ok, I'm sorry I have been slacking on the posting. The end of the school year is always chaotic. Miss Jordan is going to be in a play Thursday night. Super exciting. Something about fish I assume since is going to be a starfish. Oh and I found out she kissed a boy named Jareth at recess. And so it starts already. *sigh* Eric told her she isn't allowed to kiss boys and her reply was, "Only you Daddy?"

Emma is in the choir and has the opportunity to sing on the 4th of July with James Burton (Elvis' guitar player). She is very excited about that. She is definitely ready for school to be out for the summer. She is not really looking forward to 4th grade, although I think she is scared it will be too hard. She doesn't realize just how smart she is and I don't understand that.

Alexandra is doing well. They have a GEE test which is a general exit exam for high schoolers given in LA. Her counselor told us she probably would not pass this years since she was only here a month before it was given and they would let her take it again during the summer. Well that girl passed it anyway. GO ALEX!! Also we were informed that she is no longer eligible for the special ed program for her ADHD. She is testing too high. Which I have always thought that special ed was a crutch for her not to try. She scored the highest grade in the class on a Spanish test a couple of weeks ago. She is going to go to her moms for the month of July and I think the girls could use the separation honestly. While she is gone I am gonna let Emma stay in her room.

I am hoping to make a trip to Missouri to see my mom this summer. I really miss her. There are so many times I feel alone here. I love it in Shreveport, really I do. I just miss having her close. None of my close friends live near here and I miss them. I have a couple of friends here but the work so we don't get to hang out much. I have to find something to do about that.....


Peace and Love

Can't It Just Be Easy For A While?

Sorry it has been so long since my last post. I have been otherwise occupied. I have had a lot on my mind lately. We are currently doing the paycheck to paycheck thing which doesn't seem to last to the next paycheck. I have entertained the thought of going back to work, but I am struggling with making it work to be at a job and everywhere else I need to be at the same time. Plus I would have to pay for childcare while I am work. It doesn't seem to be feasible right now. Maybe after the summer is over. I don't know. Any thoughts? I know I am tired of feeling guilty for every dime I spend even when it is only on groceries and gas. Its not like I go shopping for anything else. I know Eric is working his butt off and can't do any more than he is right now. So I have to do something, I just don't know what.

All I do know is that I am praying and hoping for a reprieve and its not coming any time soon. What's up with that? My stress level can not go any higher with out it doing some damage. It's just not fair to have to keep fighting to stay a float. I mean I know life is not fair and all that crap but really? Can't a person get a break once in a while?

Peace and Love